12 Weeks today!!!

It has been a while since I have posted. I cannot believe how fast the weeks are passing. A quick update of the past weeks. After finding out we had 2 babies we went back for another ultrasound 2 weeks later and we saw two heartbeats...so sweet and they also discovered a third empty sac. That was a little scary!! The doctor found a good heart rate on baby A but baby b was an unreadable rate but still a flickering heart. He released me to my OB and said I was not out of the woods yet......jeez lighten up. I had my first ob appt at 9 weeks. They did a ultrasound as soon as we arrived. I was so nervous. I guess I knew that there might be a chance of no baby b. The ob only found one viable baby...baby A. Baby B had already begun to be absorbed....I hate to think of it that way. The third sac was still empty. Needless to say I was stunned and for a while I thought that maybe she just did the us to fast and missed b.

We were scheduled to come back for the nt scan at 11 weeks...something new to worry about! Turns out our little babies fold is perfect and he was face down with his arms and legs moving.....so cute!! J and I smiled all day about it!!

Today I am 12 weeks and feeling so thankful to have reached this point. We go back in four more weeks for the gender scan...how fun!!!!!!

TWINS!!!!!!!

Here's a  few pics of our 2 little beans!!!

Overdue for a posting!

Wow I've been really bad with keeping up with this blog. So I will sum it all up as quickly and briefly as possible. We had our retrieval which went very smoothly and produced 22 eggs! Not bad for a 42 year old! Of the 22 only one was discarded due to abnormalities. The others all had ICSI preformed on them the same day as retrieval. The following day 18 had fertilized. We made it to transfer with 5 excellent embryos all of great quality. The doc suggested transferring all 5 the embryologist leaned towards 4 and J wanted to do 1!!!! So of course the RE's persistence won out and we did all 5. He assured J that no one my age in his practice ever got knocked up with more than twins. Not sure how comforting that was for my poor husband. After the RE left J announced he would personally come back and kick his *ss if I was an anomaly!!! I was on bed rest for three days. My parents came up from southern Florida to help and it was wonderful. I didn't have to cook or clean or walk the dogs.....AWESOME.

After about a week I started to blow up like a balloon in my abdomen. I was having trouble taking a full breath and was drinking a ton but only peeing a drop. We eventually had to go to the ER that night because I started to have alot of trouble breathing and a burning sensation in my belly. They did an US and it showed massive amounts of fluid in my abdominal cavity. The doc asked if I could be pregnant? You think? I just told you I did IVF and J had to explain to you what it was!! They drew some blood for a pregnancy test and as we waited J stated he wished we would have gotten the doctor that at least got a B in Med school! Doc came back a few minutes later and state I was pregnant!!! He said go see your fertility doctor because we are not touching you. We then drove 2 hours to my RE's clinic and as soon as they saw the size of my tummy they freaked. They did blood work and sent me to be drained....yes drained! I had a lovely needle placed in my belly and out came 3 liters of apple juice looking yuck. I stayed in the hospital that day and night to be monitored and went home the next day.

Fast forward a week and I am being tapped again. Fun, Fun. Luckily I have had no other fluid build up since and am feeling somewhat like myself again! We go in for our first US tomorrow morning and I am so nervous.

BTW we had 3 frosties make it to blast stage and are now keeping each other company in freezer :)

Maybe too many eggs?????

How is that even possible? I'm 42 for the love of God!

Anyways US yesterday showed a total of 43 follicles of which 14 are mature (over 15mm) and my E2 was 3200!

I am hoping that after this mornings US they will let me trigger tonight and schedule retrieval for Wednesday.

I am scared they will cancel me now due to possible OHSS..hopefully not!!

Worried...nervous...stressed

I have eggs..I have eggs....I have eggs!

Well medically speaking I have follicles which may or may not contain eggs. Had my second ultrasound this morning and I was very worried that I might have possibly over suppressed with the Lupron having never taken it before. And add that in conjunction with 6 weeks of BC pills and I thought my ovaries would have shut down for a long time. I did everything in slow motion this morning even getting undressed for the ultrasound. Its funny how the tech can be the person you love the most at the moment, or the sight of her makes you sick depending on the news.

So my lining is 8.5 which is good since I've had 2 visits from AF due to the Lupron. And I have 3 follicles on each ovary measuring between 10-12 with a bunch trailing behind. I am so happy!!! I was just praying for at least enough to get me to retrieval. Fingers crossed my E2 is climbing and I just might have a shot at this after all.

BTW thank goodness I had a good appt the lady in front of me had a trail of US pictures coming out of the techs room. Then she proceeded with "I have a question? Is my BABY here in the same position as this picture of my BABY?" Ok lady we all got it. Your having a baby!!! If you repeat it one more time I will honestly scream *uck you!!!!!! After my US another lady getting her blood taken is gushing on about her positive pee sticks the last 3 days...."lines were so dark...maybe more than one...do you think?" I think you should wait on your beta and keep it down because you are ruining my moment of happiness over my 6 little eggs!!!!!!

I called J to give him the report. "What only six...you had 22 for the IUI??? I had to explain that was at the time of HCG, we have just started with the stims on this one. Oh ok ....so I recount my story with the 2 annoying prego ladies and my sweet J says you should be happy for them and that I would have a banner flying if it were me. He of course is completely right. I would probably sit down with anyone in the waiting room and share my US pictures. I guess I can look at it also as my doc being so good at what he does that people are popping up pregnant left and right!

So much for cool, calm, and relaxed!

That was my plan for these upcoming two weeks. Alot of laying around doing nada. Well so far my plan has been a major failure. My poor daughter M had to have emergency surgery on her appendix on Thursday. Have I ever mentioned when either of my girls are sick I am a raving lunatic. My oldest daughter N said that they should have sedated me on Thursday along with M !! So true. I remember when they were young and the very few times they became ill I was unbearable to be around...I just wanted them better!!!! So on top of the surgery I squeezed in my US appt the following morning at the crack of dawn. J stayed home with M....he's the best! Had my blood drawn then followed my date with the probe....yuck I will never get use to that thing. My lining was good but she still saw some fluid. Then came cyst one and two...one on each ovary. They were small and the tech said....well they could be follicles...not really sure. HUH...are you serious...do ya think we could figure it out? I'm pretty sure that makes a big difference. Jeez so they send the pics over to the doc for review. Nurse calls back that evening and says to start stims! I'm so overjoyed I don't even bother to ask about my cysts/follicles. So I begin my stims reduce my Lupron and...............................

BLEEDING on Sunday and Monday....wtf??????? I am completely freaking out at this point. I leave a message for my nurse and wait. Well not actually wait...I google...bad idea. I know how bad it is to try to find an answer online but I cant help myself. I need an answer now! What if they cancel me? As soon as I took that first stim injection on Friday this counts as one try towards our multi-cycle attempts. Shit...Shit....Shit

Nurse calls back...its normal...from the Lupron...its just a nuisance really she states.

Nuisance....I almost had a break down in front of a client as I am going over his legal documents. Poor chap was so excited about the new hanger he was buying and all I could think about was I am bleeding which means my lining is getting thinner and it should be getting thicker..argggg Mr. Hanger man I do not care about your planes...I WANT A BABY!!!!

And so I wait..............

Its Tuesday and the big day(big day so far) is Friday for my baseline ultrasound and possible start of stims!
My stomach is black and blue from the Lupron shots and also my legs are in the same condition thanks to a friendly neighborhood bulldog. I'm quite a lovely sight! J and I have finished taking our antibiotics. Not much to post on...ready to get this show on the road.

I went to a website yesterday which is suppose to predict your actual chances of having IVF work..yeah should have stayed away from that one. I plugged in all my info/stats and I have a 14.7% chance....are you *ing kidding me. Think it was my age that did me in. So of course I had to tinker and tweak it a little. So I look young and I still have eggs according to my RE so I skimmed five years off my age and...........................

29.4% chance

Here is the link if anyone is interest. A friend from another site posted it.

http://www.ivfpredict.com/index.html